Hi Everybody. I'm a Grandpa here
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Wow, look how the years have flown.
40 Years ago the last of the A's was in full swing but would fizzle out by December that year....
50 Year school reunion coming up at the end of this year ... Wow.
10 Years have passed since I found out
and since I joined SI a few months later
It was slow progress at first, trying to figure things out.
Those first two years post DDay were so agonizing.
Every day was an excruciating climb up the ladder. Finding out the details, step by step.
My questions needed to be answered.
Even not getting an answer, was an answer all by itself
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But it had to be done.
A lot of emotions happened and a lot of talking was done. Lots of venting.
Thankfully I have NOT wasted every day of the last 10 years worrying about the A's.
There is nothing I can learn by thinking back about those days. It is PAST.
It still bothers my wife.
Out of nowhere she will ask things like 'do you still hurt?', or say things like 'I don't know what I thought I was doing' etc....
Or 'I don't know what mind tricks you used to jump through those hoops?' ie to get yourself to accept what I did?
(She felt that if I ever found out, then that would be the end of us.)
I have mastered my triggers. I have learnt to enjoy life. I have moved on.
I am exceptionally proud that nobody else (SI & the APs excluded) is aware of our struggles.
We kept it to ourselves, worked it out together and I feel we are all the better for doing that.
When not at our individual place of work, we spend a lot of time together, doing things, planning things (she plans, I do..)
She also does my bookkeeping after hours, so even more time in each other's space.
We are both planning to retire at the end of the year, and maybe get out and go see the world a little bit.
Definitely we will spend quality time with the Grandchild.
He is already 9 months old, growing so fast.
And is just starting to crawl.